A feeling that tells me that I am free from all the intricacies of the world; a feeling that makes me indifferent about everything that is going on around me; a feeling that neither makes me happy nor sad; I am feeling it right now. I don't know what that emotion is, but it leads to a state that I call 'No Strings Attached' (NTA).
A random thought occurs to me once in a while... What if I die right now? Will I have an afterlife?..If yes, then what is the thing that I will miss the most?.. Will there be anything that I'll regret for not doing?... And every time I get different answers. Sometimes my still incomplete career goals bother me.. Sometimes I tend to think about all my dear once and how I still really want to be with them... sometimes my incomplete wishes, dreams make me think that I want more life....
But, during this NTA phase, I am just blank... I don't miss anything.. anyone... I don't wish anything... anyone.. And it wouldn't matter if my life ends at this moment...
And then I wonder..... What is real????
Me worrying about all my dreams.. wishes... unfinished tasks is real .. or me caring about nothing... wishing nothing.. wanting nothing is real?
I don't think I'll get a 'correct' answer for this ever... And at this moment, I don't really care to find it..
